Jehovah Shammah: I am the God who is always there.

•July 20, 2018 • Leave a Comment


Romans 15:13 “May God, the source of hope, fill you with joy and peace through your faith in him. Then you will overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit”

I have a tendency to brood over seemingly little things, I wonder  why a friend hasn’t called as she regularly does, have I done something to anger her?

I haven’t been sleeping and often wake up exhausted, I worry the lack of sleep will make my kidney disease worsen.

I found out my favorite nephrologist has left for a practice out of state, I worry a new nephrologist won’t care as much or give me as good treatment. And on and on the list is endless.

This morning I wake up tired and hopeless.  No sleep again last night and I have things to do.  I am crying.

I read Bible passages, pray and meditate and already  feel a sense of hope and relief knowing that God’s promise to always be there is comforting to me. How quickly peace is lost when I don’t take the time to pray and remember everything is under God’s control.

Thank you Abba for  Your wonderful promises. Once again I surrender to you my cares and fears knowing Your will and reliance on You is all I need.  Amen

Surrender and Syncronicity

•May 15, 2018 • Leave a Comment

Surrender yourself to the Lord, and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37:7 (GWT)

17-best-I have a very hard time when it comes to surrender yet, some of the most impossible miracles take place when I give the problem to God. 

I am living in a leaky camper in South Carolina… no family or friends nearby. I have just been diagnosed with a chronic illness and I don’t know how I will get home.  I advertise in many places to sell my camper to no avail. I remember clearly that day sitting on my sofa, sobbing and telling God, “You will have to care for me now. I can’t do it. I want to go home and it’s not happening. I give up.”  Within days I have a buyer and am on my way to Massachusetts. Continue reading ‘Surrender and Syncronicity’

When It’s Hard To Pray, part 2

•April 15, 2018 • Leave a Comment

I haven’t prayed for two days yet I feel close to God. I listened to Christian music and today I am watching inspirational You Tube videos. Here is one of my favorites:

Rabies Shots, Music and Drawing Near to God

•April 14, 2018 • Leave a Comment

When I listen to Christian music I am transported into God’s presence.  Even if secular music is playing on a radio I imagine all the love songs are God singing to me. If the voice is female, oh well, in my belief system God is neither male or female so any love song will do (just as long as it doesn’t have the lover leaving me in the end.) Continue reading ‘Rabies Shots, Music and Drawing Near to God’

When Praying Is Hard To Do

•April 13, 2018 • Leave a Comment

woman-kneeling-at-crossLuk_15:7  I say unto you, that even so there shall be joy in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine righteous persons, who need no repentance.

I have a deep inner sense of unworthiness and it’s interfering with my relationship with God.  I have other blogs and the words flow easily and freely. I feel it inside when I’m ready to post here, there is a sense of halting and hesitation.  I try to isolate the feeling this morning and it comes to me.  Who the heck do I think I am to have the nerve to write about God?  I certainly am not any authority, I don’t even know if I have a right to write. Ooops, if anything, these type of thoughts are more from the devil than a heavenly source. Continue reading ‘When Praying Is Hard To Do’

The Eyes Have It

•April 13, 2018 • Leave a Comment

eyeMatthew 6:22  Your eye is a lamp that provides light for your body. When your eye is good, your whole body is filled with light.

I’ve noticed when I’m close to God and praying regularly my eyes sparkle and seem like they have an inner lamp.  I’ve actually been driving down the highway, listening to Christian CD’s and glimpse the bright twinkle in my rear view mirror.  My eyes have been dull for a long time and yesterday, I prayed and listened to Christian CD’s in my car and yes, I looked. They have the start of a slight glow but not the full-blown beacon that indicates I am close to God.  Continue reading ‘The Eyes Have It’

The Curse of Being A Do It Yourself Kinda Gal

•April 12, 2018 • Leave a Comment

seesawPsalm 31:14 14But I trust in you, LORD; I say, “You are my God.”

It’s like there is a see-saw in my mind.  When things get tough I’m on my knees. When things are going OK I completely forget about God.  I don’t think I’m alone in this.  Things haven’t been perfect in my life for the past four years or so but I’ve managed as I’m used to doing. So… I haven’t been praying.  

I’ve had bouts of my being distant from God in my past but never this long. I’m getting older (67 years young) and have a number of physical disabilities but I have accepted them and I’m resigned.

I wiped the dust off my copy of Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young and it’s almost uncanny how God today’s devotion exactly relates to what I need to hear:

“Trusting Me is a moment by moment choice.”  pg. 107 Continue reading ‘The Curse of Being A Do It Yourself Kinda Gal’

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